After Birth | The Soundscapes

As part of Co:LAB Festival 2018

Soundscapes for AFTER BIRTH
by Jennifer Hardy

LEAK Soundscape

Artwork titled "Almost Edible" by Naomi Kendrick
Music by Jennifer Hardy

Snippets from the monologue titled LEAK, written by Nicola Schofield:

"Soft cheeks. The baby smell. Talc. 
No one uses talc but it’s what you imagine. 
And it’s all true. Soft cheeks. The baby smell. 
But so is all this other stuff no one warned me about. 
And I wonder would I warn someone? "

FEAR Soundscape

Artwork titled "Brink" by Naomi Kendrick
Music by Jennifer Hardy

Snippets from the monologue titled FEAR, written by Nicola Schofield: 

"The terror
Are the endless tasks to keep the dark thoughts at bay? 
The terror of what might happen to you. 
The physicality of your presence."

"I fear your rejection. 
Your rejection of my weakness, I want to be strong for you."

"How do you love without fear?" 

RISK Soundscape

Artwork titled "Untitled 4" by Naomi Kendrick
Music by Jennifer Hardy

Snippets from the monologue titled RISK, written by Nicola Schofield:

"When I was a child I loved hearing about my birth on my birthday. 
There was a thunderstorm. Lightening. 
And I guess I loved hearing how I was wanted. 
I never knew mum only told half the story."

"I feel something rise up in me. Fear. Relief. 
This feeling of failure. Of guilt. 
The guilt hits me in waves and waves till I’m crashing to the shore."

"I’ve not been well. 
I know that now. 
I know."